or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not
my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts.
I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom,I never held down a screaming child
so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom,I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom,I didn't know the feeling of
having my heart outside my body..
I didn't know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond
between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment
or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom...
I am so blessed, God gave me one of the best mom's ever! She is one of my best friends & I have to say that I am the lucky one. Anyone who has ever met her knows she is straight from heaven, the most selfless, loving, genuinely caring person I know. We have a running joke in my house- I always tell Jason that he wishes he'd married my mother! lol. (not really) its just a joke because I am SO different than my mother. I think God knew I needed her to balance out my strong willed ways. I have very big shoes to fill when it comes to being a mom myself, because I have learned from the very best. One of my favorite things as an adult is getting to also be her neighbor, to have Sunday dinners together every week and share life together, to be there when one of us just needs to get out of the house, to bake christmas cookies together, build snowman, take long evening walks, play ball in the yard, borrow sugar & eggs (oh wait I'm the only one who does that!) :) Something I am now learning raising a daughter of my own is that my goal is to raise not just a daughter but a best friend. I can only hope & pray that when my girl is my age that loves me as much as I love my mom! Even at (almost) 30, "I'm still you're baby girl"
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