Saturday, March 23, 2013

Forgetting the Easter Eggs


.... Easter is coming! Karly had her Easter party at school last week. I was in line at morning drop off & the teacher ask if I had her Easter eggs?
Oh my Gosh! Easter Eggs, how could I forget?!
No, I'll run them right up...


I didn't even make it to the car & the tears came bursting! Ever have those moments when you feel so overwhelmed by life that all you can really do is cry. That no matter where you turn or what you do you are letting someone down?! This has been my past month.  I have so much on my plate right now and all of it I love, all great things, but I begin to let life overwhelm me. Wanting to be there for every step of the way with Noelle. This is a once in a life time moment as she is planning her wedding, and the last time I will have this opportunity. Wanting to spend as much time with Karly and invest into her before her world gets rocked with a baby sister & has to share us all the time. Realizing that she will be starting KG in just a few months. Knowing that life as we know it is getting ready to turn into uncharted territory.  There are walls I need to paint, decorations I need to make, a million phone calls to make, when is the last time I paid that bill, what's for dinner, did I drink my 64oz of water today?, KG registration, college financial aid, Shower (did I shower today?!), hospital registration, baby/ wedding showers, registries, cleaning, laundry, my husband gets sick, my 5 yr old gets sick & nights in the ER running every test possible cause they cannot figure out why she has 105 fever and screaming with abdominal pains (side note: ER's are pointless. Momma figured it out before the Dr's. baby girl has mono :(  Mom:1 vs. Dr: 0 )..... AHHHHHHH!  How could I forget the Easter Eggs?! I wanted to scream, hurt someone, cry for hours, wanted my best friend, my mom & wanted to not have to be the grown up for just one day! All it took were some silly Easter Eggs to make me crash...


Being a mom is hard work! After I had my mini meltdown, (ok so there was nothing mini about it ;) God reminded me of one simple word. 
Grace.
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 2 Cor 2:9

My type A personality likes everything to be perfect all the time. I hate making mistakes. I hate forgetting things, I hate things not being perfectly in their place. But God has reminded me once again that He needs my weaknesses as much as my perfections. I am certain that within the next 4 months I will probably have another meltdown (I am a little hormonal these days), however I am so glad that God gives me grace, even when I forget the Easter Eggs. 
Got the Easter Eggs! Success.

1 comment:

Meghan said...

Tears in my eyes reading this, LeAnn. I can relate, sista! Sometimes life is just too much to take, so thankful to have a God that is so much bigger than my "biggest" issues and insecurities. So thankful for that GRACE! :)